What I want to accomplish within the next year
Sometimes I feel like I unconsciously project myself as a “serious” and “cool” person on this blog and that could not be farther from the truth. Nearly everything I say irl is with a playful and light hearted tone and I am very “animated” (people always tell me I remind them of a movie character or cartoon). Which is really a defense mechanism wherein I am extremely introverted and fear people actually getting to know me because I will then have to hang out with them which takes away from the time I can be in my room alone thinking about what it means to “be” or reading a novel or watching some indie romantic comedy (It’s also very selfish). It works because people laugh and feel comfortable around me but there is still a distance between us. This blog is also a product of my introverted-ness, where I can post things that adhere to a certain aesthetic that makes me happy. I can be completely anonymous and i fear becoming “tumblr famous”. But I am grateful for the people who “follow” me and some of my favorite tumblrs have followed me back which is really a nice feeling. Coffee makes me say things, I apologize
I weep for humanity cause I love it, through all it’s disappoints I still love it and it hurts.
My best friends threw me a surprise party last night, it was like the end of my favorite LCD Soundsystem song “If I could see all my friends tonight”. I had been thinking about the song all week and I really didn’t expect to celebrate with so many people that I love. After having a rough year, last night put a spark back into my life and reminded me that I have great friends who care about me. Good friends, good food, and good music.
A 3 beer buzz is the perfect buzz. After that, you gotta wait like a half hour before you drink another beer and so on and so on. You don’t want to get anymore drunk than a 3 beer buzz and any less will put you to sleep.
